time checking now! 10:59pm !!!
yawnz!!!
today is thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thursday!!! thursday!!!
i was so anxious and energentic today!!!
omg! hahaha anw i cant get to slp ytd.. i slp at about 2+
mummy pei me.. she dig out the ingredient paper.. den ask me read.. see how do..
den.. THE PAPER ALL CHINESE words!!!!!!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW!!! my chinese sux! i can speak but i cant write or read.. haha only simple chinese i can =x =x =x
hahahaha in the end i have to choice.. so i ask mummy wake up to guild me.. but don help me!
haha i want to be the one doing it! hahaha..
so i slp aga aga at 2+ and i wake up at around 5.15 .. suppose to wake at 5.. but i dragged.. too tired.. is like.. i just fall asleep 5min ago and its 5am+ in the morning alr! shows how tired i am -.-'' so.. i bath and half clothes on.. haha and when i bath hao...
mummy already help me prepare all the ingredient on the table liao!!! l0l
is like SHE IS MORE ANXIOUS THAN ME LA!!!!!!!!!! -.-'' keep.. kuai dian ..LOL!!!
ANW damn funny! cant believe dom first time cut garlic -.-'' i don even know how to cut la..
den cut dao the garlic all damn big big size! and starting i put oil .. i dunno how much.. den mummy say put abit..den i poul in.. mummy at there.." EHHH EHHH" ni shen jing bing ah..
so many oil! hahaha anw the process is real real funny!!! keep laughing with my mum! cant believe cooking is actually tat fun..if cooking is as easy as playing bball! i will do it everyday! haha.. mummy keep wanna help me.. but i don wan! haha
anw part of the effort goes to mummy! cause she is the one guilding me!!! hahaha..
and b4 i left hse.. manage to catch a few pic using "ipod" took out and flash a few pic! haha..

ANW!!! this is the first time.. DOM EVER COOK -.-'' omg i cant really believe..
other than cooking egg.. cooking maggie.. cooking cambell soup..
this is the first time i ever cook a dish!!! anw.. tried some of the fried rice.. actually i think like. it quite sux! cause like no taste.. but.. i did tried my best!!! believe there is some room for improvement!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha
i hope its appreciated.. :))) at least a smile on ur face is enough..

anw.. i name my first ever dish i cook..
"Dom's fried rice"

so its anyone wanna try it... can buy from me..
sell cheap cheap.. 3bucks only! hahaha!!!! jkjk

tasty? this is call "set A" lunch set! haha

dom's fried rice (Y)

TADAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tats about it!
hope u enjoy it :)

anw.. back to life...
Ohhhh currently! 11:11 now!!!
make a wish again!!!
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done! hahaha.. anw..always so zhun.. blog alr see the time like always fall on 11:11pm
how i wish if my wish is "i wanna have more wish" hahaha ok kinda lame =.=''''
so.. today is kinda boring and tiring day.. i have like barely 3hrs of slp.. and wake up to prepare stuff.. so.. lesson at 9-6..
i attend lesson till 11.. and i cant take it anymore.. i super tired.. and i went home.. at 12 liddat..
i skip lesson.. haix.. tutorial lesson somemore..
i have been skipping lesson! its been a habit since i keep skip lesson..
haix..
my attendance like kinda cui alr.. i scared later ungraded pass -.-'' so i reach home at around 1.. and slp all the way till 4+ and went out to meet a friend.. ohh ya.. today i dream again! haix.. as in.. why on earth i can dream 3 senerio in a dream.. ok anw the dream really abit scary.. don even feel like mentioning it.. when i wake up.. i kinda sweat.. but i cant do a single shit.. cant rang any single person.. staring in the space.. at least.. i can control how to calm down now..
ohhh yaaa... anw esther is like kinda lame..
text me super randomly when i was in design sch eating..
she ask me listen to the song "MARY JANE" by the click 5.. den ask me listen to the lyrics..
and i ask why.. she told me.. she just feel tat .. that song suits me -.-'' hahaha..
after listen to it! ITS LIKE KINDA TRUE! hahaha.. maybe .. haha

i regretted.. not going for training again! this is the 2nd year i miss my poly selection!!!
haix.. if only i went for selection for year 1 and year 2.. if only..!!!
i want to be someone best favourite star player.. hahaha.. ok.. now.. in my dreams..
all i can do is nth.. kinda regretted.. but its ok.. at least i know.. whats my priority..
years ago.. bball is always at my first priority.. i miss the time.. i use to ball so much..
when everything was so under control!!!!! when the time i was in nvss! when i don even needa care about anything!!!

OHHHH!!! luckly tmr is friday.. and again.. i have no sch tmr.. cause of some reason..
late at night alr.. going out to meet friend :)))
nights guys!!!

hows "doms fried rice" ?
sry.. maybe it sux.. but dom dom tried his best...
at least..
i hope that at least put a smile on ur face! not only that! but with ur teeth as well!
anw.. it was so heartbroken to see somethings i don wanna see..
when after weeks.. i finally connect to the wireless.. so many things pop out..
after a few slide.. i decide not to continue seeing.. i stop myself from seeing..
i don wanna know what the conver was all about.. i just disconnect the internet and put the ipod away again..
.....
......
........
its was so painful..
but i endure.. at least i told myself.. "trust"..
yea.. i know u for at least 5year + .. i know what kind of a person u are..
definetly i know .. so.. its ok.. =) i am learning..
i remember what u told me! don be judgemental!!! yes!!! i learn!!!
i wont judge u.. i believe u :)))
but take care of urself and don give the wrong impression i hope..
at least.. take care of urself...
ur module i think is call wcp?.. will end soon!!!
endure!!! stay strong!!!
i will be near u.. giving u my support!!!
and happen to see ur twitter..
see u kinda like sprain ur ankle.. it was so heartpain!!! how i was i can be there to massage for u!!!.. remember after working at body shop.. was once ur leg also very suan.. help u massage..
anw.. endure!!! dom believe u can do it!!! trust urself :))) ok?
don doubt urself! cause u are strong urself!!! dom always told u.. u very strong.. wont get beaten easily!
dom dom believe in u.. :)))
zhao gu zhi ji.. and gai hao bei!!!
take care =)
i believe what u said...
if we are meant to be.. we will..
i found u.. and.. never will i wanna lose u again..
zhao gu hao urself and ur health!!!
wan an

Been here @ 7:56 AM

HI..
hahaha

have been reading the book and i find this quote quite meaningful! hahaha
so decided to take a pic down.. anyway there are even more quote in it! hahahaha
kinda addicted to it! lent 1 day and i read about 80+ page.. in sch and at home!

anw i have prepare some stuff!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHE!!!
OFF TO DAISO now with mummy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
motivation here i come

first time ever dom C_ _ _ s? hahahah!!!!

hopes it cheers u... at least

tah tah!!!

Been here @ 4:59 AM

hi guys.. dom is back..

anw.. i got a song to intro to u all

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mItRaZB-oF8
嚴爵-好的事情
very (Y) hehehe... i think the lyrics very meaning and touching :))))))))))))))
cant stop listening to it and repeat it again and again..

ANW!!! WO HEN KAI XING!!!!! WO ZHEN DE ZHEN DE HEN KAI XING!!!!

how i hope.. all my stuff.. my person.. my everything.. someone will be appreciated..
i am in need of strength.. really really in need of it.. i wanna have my strength back!!!
i have lost it all!!!!!!!! but i will have to find it back again!!!!!!!!

another reason i felt happy is cause.. i manage to help someone.. even though i am having problem with my situation!!! i am like a middle man!!! i kinda brain wash both parties.. and now they know what they really want and they are so happy and know how to settle stuff...
Wont mention who.. but.. GD LUCK TO U GUYS!!!
Q & J .. wish u all the best.. :))) I HAVE done my best...
anw.. i feel happy to see them tgt as they also have problem.. so maybe i helped and i will have gd karma! hehehehe!!!!!!! i hope!!!

yea.. errr anw..
thx to those who keep stood by me.. as usual.. i really thx u all.. appreciated =DDD
after reading my past previous few post.. feel better.. and i can even finally put a smile on my face.. reading all these.. even reading all my diary again..
dom have come to sense :)))

anw.. i have been reading story books!!!! as in.. story book! hahahaha
recently a secondary sch friend just borrow a book from ngee ann sec and borrow it to me! she told me its very useless and really makes sense.. so she extent the dateline of returning the book and lent it to me! she say i must must must read it.. so ya.. i thought of it and decided to read it!!! hahaha anw.. i might be a bookworm from now on!
SO!!! If u guys see me walking around or reading a book! don laugh at me! cause i really find the book real TRUE AND INTERESTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just start reading it and i am kinda addicted to it.. kinda something like a "how to be a better person" and some err romance de stuff .. and kinda like a lecture book..

till here..
nights guys..

are u really happy? bao bao..
i don have the guts.. to call u these anymore..
baobao.beebee,laopo,ahpo,precious,dar,darling ..
i tried to stop myself from thinking.. i cant bring myself to see..
i don know what exactly happens.. i choose to avoid.. cause i am afraid..
today is the 3week exactly le.. and next week will be a month..

ni zhi dao ma.. wo zhen de bu xiang SI QU ni..
remember.. how long how long how long..
wo yi zhi dou hui "deng ni" i just wan u to kai xing now! remember!
i hope ni tian tian kai xin!!! remember!!!!!
u wont get to see my support i have for u... BUT inside ur heart..
"dom" will always be inside ur heart giving u moral support..
i hope u can really feel i am so worry for u..
so pain to see u struggling in ur module and cause but i cant do anything..
i still wanna be there to protect u and teng u.. (for the rest of my life)
xd xn will be giving u support as well.. we are holding on to u to give u our support..
JIA YOU "natalie" bu yao fang qi!!!
JIA YOU!!! NI KE YI DE!!! dom will always be there facing all these obstacle with u ..
i am not there but remember ( the necklace ) i am near u..
"ur toot button" always alarm me.. no matter what!!! is it a false alarm?
or am i thinking too much?
anw..
endure.. =D
remember.. putting a smile on ur face! with ur teeth showing!!!
jia you ..
you always have my fullest support! remember!
don give up! i will hold ur hand invisable and walk all these obstale with u..
"dom dom" is always here..
BU YAO FAN QI!!!
no one will ever teng ni.. like how i teng u.. cause i teng u the most!
zhao gu urself!!! most importantly .. u happy i jiu happy..
wan an and remember to gai hao bei!!!
tc

Been here @ 10:52 AM

DREAMMMMMM.... dream dream dream.. dreammmmm...
hahaha kinda suddenly remember the song... cause.. when i woke up..
i woke up with a nightmare dream -.-'''

Everly Brothers - All I Have To Do Is Dream ... haha save my day! hahaha.. posted the song online.. haha have a listen peeps.. anw the song is kinda retro! hahahaha!!! but tats my dad favourite!!! SO.. respect abit! hahaha

anw.. i guess the worst nightmare of all is today dreams.. ok i have to get this date down!
ON 23th of july! -.-''' guess i think too much! hahaha.. kinda ytd drink sooooo much till i don even know wad i am thinking.. reaching home at nearly 5am ytd night and i am still having headache ... luckly i nv slp at the road site huh.. haha.. ok.. don feel like saying wads the dream about.. hahaha.. i remember the time when dream.. nightmare! haha i will rang up someone phone.. and telll em i dream.. haha den keep scared scared.. haha and em will sayang and consol me telling me all is ok! l0l... lame.. like boy boy.. hahaha.. and when i wake up today.. all i do is stoning there.. didnt even know what to do!!! sweating like a dog.. haha and tell myself.. dreammmmmmmm... nth de.. sooooo yeaaa... its nth "dom dom"

AND!!! I DON LIKE RAINING DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i use to... but not now!!!!!!! whenever it rains!!!!!! I WILL THINK!!! sooo much sooo much!!! use to run happily in the rain for shelter..
use to wipe a forehead.. I HATE RAINING DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! DON RAIN!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ohhh anw.. kinda broke now already!!! seeing how all my friend showing off their busary!!!!!!!
hahahaha... i think is 1thousand 800 dollar.. damn it!!!!! I DON HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wan money! hahaha!!!!!! remember i use to wait at the busary session and i will have pple giving me oreo.. hahaha! anw. $$$$$$$$ =(((( hahaha

anw thx lewis.. haha jeff bro..
he is kinda like drunk ytd and he mention about his stuff.. how hurtful it was..
7 years.. don worry lewis.. haha.. as u said.. time will heal!!! i believe u will be better..
seeing how painful he was.. i am kinda like.. cant do a single shit.. like see him wanna break down or cry liddat.. all he do is.. drinkkkkkkk.... -.-'''

anw
i miss my ipod!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don have games to play.. i don have song to listen other than my hp!!!
i can only use it when i am in the lab.. or at home where there is com!!!
recently i just happen to see back stuff online... but still.. yeaaa.. cant handle it...
so as usual.. i made up my mind again!!!!! nv to see it again... i don wanna see and think...
so.. just GET OVER IT DOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i rather know nth than keep thinking..
den dreammmmmmm! hahahaha..

i am so stressss up now... i feel like going bugis to shop.. haha.. anw usually i don go bugis to shop.. cause its kinda like.. YP!!! -.-''
still.. i dunno why i have a feel to go there.. hahahahaha

anw... this is world... everything is soooooooooo fake...
some pple change.. some pple remain.. some pple go off.. some pple come in.. some live some dead.. sooo many things happen... what to do.. we just have to suck tumb..(Y)
and live with it... NO ONE LIVE FOR SOMEONE!!! we live for our own...
although i wanna be the one to share the pain.. i wanna teng.. i wanna love.. i wanna care..
i wanna be the only person to share all the pain..vent it out on me.. i be there..
I use to have been soooo happy.. sooooo xinfu.. sooo dom! haha.. everyone telling me they are soooo jealous of me..
but.. come to think of it... am i really happy... is this the life i want now..
confusion!!! yeaaaa right.. again.. suck tumb!!! just don care about any stuff!!!!!!!!!! as usual..
there was once saying "i rather lose an arguement to u than to lose u" crap.. i did self reflection on myself.. i even once wrote on a mirror b4 too.. and do self reflection on myself..
did i really change..? or did i don even know who i am... i dunno!!!!! ahhhh!!!! i am soo useless..

OK.. everyone is sooo stress up now.. soooo soooo soooo stress up... reason behind it.. why stress can cause so many stuff to happen.. to be different than b4!!! why cant just solve it..
manage to consol a gd friend of mine ytd.. sot of treat her like my small sis.. she telling me.. OLVL.. she cant take it.. and she rather don care about the other party now.. cause it happens too many time.. ok don really wanna elaborate more.. but.. after consolling her on phone ytd.. she kinda feel better i guess.. anw.. don worry.. everything will be fine!!!

i wanna be there.. reminds me of michael jackson song! haha"
whenever u need me... i'll be there.. haha.. ok random ttm!!!
alright.. 1:42 at my time now.. shld i head over to buy mee sua? haha!!!

tah tah :)

no one will ever teng u so much like how i teng u :)
cause i teng u the most! remember..

Been here @ 10:18 PM

ehhh ohhhhh!!! hello =)))

ahhhh stresss... 6project!!! + sociology = 7 project!!!!!
omg i cant imagine if main exam is coming! i afraid i cant handle it!!!!!!!!
2hr per paper! means like 2hr x 5 papers = 10hr of sitting in the exam hall! stressss!!! AHHHHH
hahahaha! anw.. i think i will be able to handle it ba! i have handle more more more x10000 stress stuff than this b4!!! soo "dom , u can do it" ... i hope this time round last min still works for me... :))) torlong torlong..

i wanna find ways to relax myself!!! ... maybe i shld go shopping alone?
maybe i shld watch movie alone? anw.. jk.. not so emo...
come to think of it.. actually i miss watching movie.. like..
"i am no.4" my fav! haha cause i am no. 7 l0l.. , "shaolin" , "and maybe some ghost show like "1303" or "alone" and actually some romance movie really quite gd actually too.. shows like.. "you again" and many many!

ohhh! anw just see my fb video i seem last time b4.. hahaha my friends cousin wedding! haha
tats very fun!!!!!!!!!! and i promise to let my wife be able to play those kind of games on wedding! hahahaha.. anw.. suprises is what most fav.. understand best...
hahaha not having ipod with me.. like been days since i visit fb.. so happen to see fb and some video and twitter when i on my com.. hahahaha but.. why dont i have any feeling... nah.. forget it..

anw.. kinda reminses of the previous me! hahaha when i was young! i use to do stupidsss things in sch! hahaha.. omg.. kinda recall back my secondary sch life! hahaha..
i use actually one of the most most naughty kid around in sec sch! hahaha.. maybe thats y i miss my sch so much! and not now!!! i wanna go back to sec sch! hahaha.. throw eggs.. hahaha
but.. still.. kinda change so much on the process when i were about going sec 5! hahaha.. didnt imagine someone can change me from a person to a totally diff person i imagine! seriously i think i very guai ! hahahahahahahaha..not to forget "gay" haha she also one of my best friend who treat me so well as well and confort... ohhh and remember i have a crush on someone when sec 3.. and i pass her 1 heart everyday! haha..till a box.. hahaha really cute cute!!!

ohhh anw.. i believe i do have many pple i wanna thx... hahaha although these pple might not be able to see it.. but still.. its the thought that counts! hahaha..

first of all...

MUMMY! DADDY! BROTHER!
ok.. if u were to ask me years ago.. i will heck care them.. cause i always told them.. i have grown! i have grown.. i am now a man! infact.. recently i just realise.. yes! i have grown! in the physically and not in the brain! i once thinks that.. i rule the whole things.. i have my own life! i live my life! but.. i am wrong.. without them.. i wont be here.. specially thx to my dad.. lecturing me and teach me whats right when i was soooo wrong!!! guilding me thru everything.. even now! hahaha and mum! specially thx to u too! haha without u.. i dunno wad is mummy love!
u have heart problem and u still without fail.. wake up at 2am in the midnight and take care of me when i am sooooo down! haha and even slept beside me! hahaha.. omg seriously.. i feel like i am like a kid once again! hahaha YEA!!! thx to my family!!! i understand where my mistake stands and i will works towards it!!!!!

NEXT
Teachers!
specially thx to "HELEN CHONG" hahaha.. remember the first teacher i knew when i step into nvss! hahaha help me sooo much!!!!!!!!!!! taking care of me like a 2nd mother! hahaha and javier yon! haha guild me thru soo much! hahaha!!! and many many more to name
hahahah "nvss teacher" rox.. hahahaha..

malerie(korkor gf)
hahaha anw kinda random . but yea i still hope to thx her still... i misunderstood her once!
and.. didnt did i realise she very nice.. haha still remember when i wake up.. she suddenly come in and talk to me randomly for that powerful 2.5hr.. hahahaha yea.. "YES YES" trust i know! haha expected! the same old stuff she mention over and over again! haha thx malerie.. u really a nice person i know! hahaha u talk to me like i am ur friend and share so many stuff with me.. haha as usual.. last long with kor! and stay pretty..

next..
desiree oh..
yea.. u all might not know who so is.. but still.. i wan to thx her! haha.. anw without her..
i cant do everything smoothly for that someone.. she help me alot alot alot....
for telling me about the graduation bear....
for making the genting suprise dog " although abit fail" cause found out initially
for helping me make that someone most special 18 birthday a success..
for helping me make my 3y candle..
for acc me to buy the kinder suprise which really WAS a suprise..
and helping me to divert attention! haha although sometime pass and sometime fail! haha
and many many many more throughout the 3-4years! hahahah its was really fun to have someone to help so much that when u cant do any single stuff.. she will still give me a helping hand! and consol me with her seriously sarcastic jokes! hahahaha.. its really fun! nv had it b4..
anw! des!!! gd luck for ur OLVL!!! remember! below 15 treat u a meal! hahahaha!!!
jia you..

next next next...
and auntie! haha..
auntie is the first sot of "mum" i met throughout my whole life! hahaha.. to be frank i quite care about her also! haha always will buy stuff for her eat also! haha and concern about her health.. and come to think of it.. me and auntie have sot of the same personality! cause maybe we are bout saggitarus! haha.. auntie also like kinda understand me so well...
i remember the first time i meet her.. i was so shy.. and still ask her if she is alright cause i was told she is not feeling well! hahaha and mahjong session with auntie was great! i was starting a noob at mahjong! but with auntie de long long term of mjing session with her! i improve! haha
anw.. i have nv went oversea without my parent b4! hahaha auntie is the first adult to bring me out to see! infact auntie really quite modern! hahahahahahaha! and remember auntie bring me to KL at malaysia to shop.from genting to KL and KL back to genting. hahahaha mentioning about KL.. i miss shopping at KL.. hahahahaha...
and remember i truely understand auntie is when at genting.. drinking coffee with her! haha that is when i truely understand her! hahaha.. i remember auntie once told me.. "dom, auntie quite like u de" as in not the like.. but.. ya.. because i treat pple gd ba i guess!(maybe) haha yea..
and actually i quite like auntie also.. she teach me alot alot alot of stuff!!!!! even till now!ohh and auntie become skinner! haha she was so happy when she heard it... hahaha anw funny..
hahaha! anw thx auntie!!! must jian jian kang kang.. and hope u be healthy..!!!

AND LASTLY!
obviously! hahaha thx myself! hahaha
without me.. there wont be all these! hahaha..
anw i found out sooo many stuff!!!!!!!
there is soooo many obstacle in this world.. we don win it easily.. we fight hard to achieve it..
we have to learn it the hard way to know whats the wrong way..
life isnt as simple as ABC... if it is.. i wont be standing here and type it...
i have to learn my lesson.. and move foward to a better person!!! and not standing there and do nth... with doing nth and not changing.. i will be a damn hell coward..
so DOM.. lets fight!!!

yea.. time now 12:30!!! i guess probably.. anw.. i guess my appetite kinda back abit! at least i have the appetite to eat.. hahaha...
guess thats all..
cya guys... ohh anw no jogging today =(

i hope u are feeling better.. remember to eat and don skip meal.. u can get through this obstacle.. yes u can!!! smile with a teeth as though nth can come in ur way.. even if no one believe u can do it.. i believe u can.. i can hear u.. i can feel u.. cause i am "dom" and there will be only 1 dom.. jy..

Been here @ 8:30 AM

its monday 11:08 shown on my laptop timer!haha and i am awake...
anw.. just now took a nap.. and really nightmare again! omg.. need to get a bigger dream catcher i guess! although current one was still as great...

6project in hand and still 6 project not even 1 done.. inclucding sociology = 7 liao! omg =(((
anw i kanna a cds.. dunno wad.. tranational studys.. ask me collect a yellow form.. haha i dunno wads that but maybe i shld skip this cds and take another one..

guess.. hows life.. yeaaa..
having an unhealthy diet of 1meal a day.. haha and i am like getting skinner and skinner..
maybe? but mr rashindin say i better more fitter.. -.-''' anw its 11:11 now!!! haha
ok!!! make a wish ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ done! hahahah
anw luckly tmr start sch late..
maybe i shld go for a run till 2+ at acc there 1round.. haha or maybe ponggol park.. mummy sure say i ki siao! hahahaha

anw.. i have not been drinking water lately.. as in.. have but seldom! and i have nv water bottle to sch b4 since primary 2 or 3.. haha.. and yes! i will be bringing it tmr! hahahaha healthy boy!

yea! my blue water bottle! anw kinda portable at least drink finish can fold and put in bag!

anw.. my mummy was cleaning my cupboard and told me my cupboard alot of dust.. den the blue box the colour abit wear off.saw the white spot over there? dunno is handprint or dust or wad also.. hahaha maybe cause of the dust! haha and i found MORE letter in it! hahaha anw i thought my wardrobe is the only place i place all my pressie and stuff in it.. and yea.. i found almost all the letter in the blue box.. hahaha..

ohhh yea.. and i spotted this tiny little keychain in the box! haha.. anw the person who invent this keychain really damn li hai!took a random pic of it.. haha its kinda like whistle.. haha and when blown it can reach quite far! standing at 1st floor.. at 8storey also can hear de.. so yea! damn li hai one.. hahaha!

my leg have been super duper pain! and kinda dry.. and some parts crack =((( super pain..
and recently just sprain my ankle! haha but kinda small stuff actually.. haha
this is all i wanna do now!!! hahahaha!!! have anyone tried fish spa? hahaha
its a wonderful experience .. and its was my 1st time! hahahaha!!! anw i enjoy it! haha

anw.. have been super stress up by many many single stuff...
anw.. i have found a way to relax myself.. hahaha.. putting my pillow and leading against it and listening to slow song can relax me and think.. haha.. anw there is a time to it..
make sure is almost sunset and abit dark when u do that! hahaha seeing the sky slowly turn from bright to dark! hahaha.. this is the time u will slowly think about stuff and calm urself down..

alright.. really not use to not having my ipod with me.. !!! and not seeing every single stuff.. not been seeing or listening to anything..infact listening song from my hp -.-'' l0l .. although i miss playing the ipod game! hahaha.. anw half tumbs up for me! :))) anw i don wish to change my phone too.. haha..

anw.. i found some nice meaning from someone.. haha.. and i think its sooooo true! haha
r/s is just like a kite.. u have to control the kite... sometimes u have to pull hard.. sometime u have to let go.. and control it well.. yea.. and somehow i recall a best combi! hahahhaa
one person control the string another control the kite! haha best combi! haha although i am lousy at flying kite.. my best longest flying a kite is about 10min! hahaha kinda lousy but yea!
as usual.. i wanna be like a kite now!!! hahahaha fly freely! :)))
anw its a lesson.. and i have to learn it a hard way! dom" u can do it! endure it :))) as always..

alright.. 11:40 now alr.. make up my mind! go jogging at 12:00 !!!!
sooo.. cya guys..

Been here @ 8:05 AM

hi.. back to post..

haix.. stress and more stress is coming.. 6projects!!! and not even 1 done!!! jialat x100000 alr! =(
shld really start doing alittle alr... haixx... =)))

ok.. just went back to nvss 10th anniversary ytd.. at nyp...
was kind of late.. hahaha.. didnt intend to go back actually.. but was ask from helen chong to go back.. haha maybe cause she wanna see me la =x hahaha.. den tell me.. i don need pay la! hahah she just let me go in.. hahahah.. mentioning about helen chong! yea she is just like my 2nd mum! so teng me and take care of me in secondary sch days! she use to protect me from canning and some discipline case! and help me say gd words.. haha thx helen chong!one of a kind of teacher i wont forget! another would be janiver yon! haha,, haha and so yea.. went to nyp for the 10nv anniversary ;)..
miss afew part of performance at first... cause was kinda late...
anw.. throughout the performace.. kinda funny at some parts and its was awesome..

and gd job my junior bballer! hahaha.. proud of u all! hahahaha.. kinda miss playing bball and going back to training.. seeing them perform.. haha if i were still in the team.. i will also be performing liao! whahaha!!! anw yea.. they improve kinda alot! haha..
kinda miss nv.. and those time spent over there! hahahahaha awesome sch i shld said.. how i wish i can go back to their training! hahaha!

time flies..
and i have been dreaming and dreaming almost everyday.. same stuff same thing..
as said.. i am a man.. have been sleeping lately due to some reason..
how i wish i can just collapse down.. and slp all way long...

anw.. just finish eating steamboat with family.. brother gf came over to eat as well..
ok.. quite long since last have steamboat tgt.. anw is like 2weeks oly.. so not that long..
anw i start to love eating liver abit raw.. kinda nice actually.. but not really have appetite though

gonna go for running later i guess.. or bball alone ba.. :))) cya..

anw the song title "qing ge" by liang jing ru really very addictive! keep listening and listening!
the link is over here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrMmBSn3i6Q&feature=related
have been keep listening over and over again! haha meaningful and nice song..

7:07

Been here @ 9:07 AM

hi... wo hui lai le :)))

time looking now is 9:25 pm haha.. after this. i gonna go jogging alone again.. :)))
ok.. nth much about today.. and not looking forward to tmr..

anw.. why no more pasa malam le.. haixyo.. hope it will open one near my hse soon :)))

anw.. kinda curious why couple can get along so well.. like.. i have seen quite a no. of it happens..
although there might be some obstacle... they too always face it tgt.. anw.. one of the example will be esther and jz and daniel and melissa.. hahaha they have always been my motivation.. kinda cool yea? hahaha mention about daniel.. haha the thought of him reminds me of him during christmas at gloria hse.. telling melissa.. WANNA BEG ANOT.. I BET WITH U ONE BABY! hahaha!!! kinda cool! haha potluck session and stuff.. haha and i won a umbrella..LOL..
esther and some vomit.. hahaha and mj after that haha.. some stuff happens ba.. hahaha and esther and jz reminds me of them.. having 3years tgt and broke for 2months + and tgt again and how happy they were now.. haha remember once esther told me long ago.. he give jz another chance to see if they fated.. and esther say.. we meet up at a place most memorable.. if we both go the same place.. we are fated.. hahaha kinda like DRAMA!!!and they really ended up at the same place! hahaha.. cool! hahaha they are really fated to be tgt :)))

ok.. i kinda get firm and steady alr! hahaha favourite line
"i hope u are better when u rant finish" yea..after ranting out.. somehow its really seems better..
hahaha went to kiki shop.. and somehow remember of something.. hahahaha maybe its better for me to write down rather than typing out..

anw.. kinda not use to not having my ipod with me.. :((( anw.. doesnt matter
rather it be this way.. while i can just ignore and not seeing any single stuff.. have not been using twitter and fbing alr.. and rather.. just running and bball and slp.. and project -.-'''''
keeping myself tired everyday and just slp whole day long! but i always wake up damn early in the morning by some weird weird dreams hahaha...
anw...exam near..!
and i have failed some term test paper.. don even know if i can make it thru.. i need some motivation.. hahaha anw kinda like.. actually someone have a way to teach me how to study.. hahaha as in the way of memorising! hahahaha impressive!
the way of finding the first letter word and den form a sentence! hahaha.. don know how to explain.. but.. yeaaa! hahahaha..

Ok.. below is random..
random pic! hahahaha

my first ever pinic at marina barrage.. haha how i hope i can be like a kite.. fly where the wind wants me to be! hahaha right now.. kite is all i wanna be now.. haha

kinda unglam! hahaha.. and my eyes is like gonna close damn soon!
'

ohhh yea.. and my first ever visit to udders.. and the alcohol icecream is damn nice.. but eat alot like abit.. -.-''''' ohhh and.. anw if u guys ever have a chance to go 313.. there have a place sell icecream also!!! the icecream really "WOOO" they even throw the icecream and demo their skill! the icecream is really (Y) :))) although i only ate once!!!! :(

seriously.. like a xiao boy boy! l0l... but i like! hahahaha yea! i wanna be a kid too although i am not! hahaha but i love to be pampered... haha maybe cause of my parent.. pampered me too much -.-'' haha till now i have to pampered myself.. hahaha jkjk!!!
how i wish i have someone to care for me more than i care for myself once more..

i wan "someone" to be proud of me..
shld i go to ponggol park later? haha..
ok.. off to jogging.. 9.54pm now..
bye

Been here @ 5:51 AM

hi.. i am back...

OK.. shld update about today..
morning went down to play bball alonea! haha as always.. when moods get bad.. only ball can let me relieve it.. hahaha
ok.. i kinda get over it le.. :)))
errrr just now mummy suddenly like xinku gain..den after tat she went down to exercise ! haha
so i told mummy.. i go pei u.. den she exercise i can bball again.. so is like 1 day play 2 times bball! haha for about 4-5hr plus of bballing! hahahaha... although i am not in the team already cause of some reason.. i decide to drop bballing in tp.. don feel like saying the reason..
but yea... although i am a fan of someone.. haha but still.. nvm..

decided to stop asking anything and everything about u alr.. just..
be whoever u are ba.. maybe tats really more happier for u..i hope..

recently.. just drop my itouch.. damn it.. luckly nth happens to it.. if not i wont forgive myself..
actually is drop but luckly my leg support it! so nth happens! :)))
kinda don really wanna look more into twitter and fb anymore.. to be frank.. i don wanna look at it alr.. hahaha.. maybe i shld delete the acc .. everything.. probably just leave it..

errrrrrrr.. kinda can get hold of life already..
do u still think i am still the same... will never change?
even if i do... will u believe me...

whatever u said to me b4.. is it really true.. is it really real..?
i am kinda like a lost kid in a jungle.. seeing u twit is like.. indirectly shooting me..like seeing those i don wanna see de stuff and maybe taunting me liddat :((( so i decided not to even see alr.. leaving my itouch at home at the casing and place it in the cupboard

I AM A MAN!!! i stand with 2 feets..

anw.. just knew u bought a dog recently.. kinda cute and lively :)))
i believe u and ur family love it alot.. but i wont get to see it ba.. haha
i believe u all will take gd care of it.. =))) its really as cute as max..

ok.. currenly.. at this very moment..
dom dom will clear his mind of everything and anything..
stop thinking and nth will go wrong.. "trust" is all i can said ba...
have been dreaming and dreaming for the past few days... i donno consider gd or bad..
but its like keep dreaming the same stuff.. maybe i think too much.. haha

OK.. gonna slp now..
slp..bball..eat..slp..bball..eat..slp..bball..eat..slp is all i wanna do now..
MAKE MYSELF GET ULTRA SUPER DUPER TIRED!!! and den slp..

how i wish i can just slp.. and don ever wake up in my dreams...

Been here @ 8:57 AM

Hey there.. i am back again :)))))
alright!!! dom is back!!! =))) ok..
i feel much much much better alr! hahaha although kinda skip sch for few days..
finally went back sch and able to concentrate better liao! hahahahaha

But this feel days kinda worry for mummy!!! her heart got problem..den she like wanna faint wanna faint liddat.. haix.. den face damn pale.. i dunno what happen.. is like suddenly!!! her heart will like suddenly jump so fast and wanna pop out she said!!!still go otram park there and see doctor that day den i dunno wad happen le.. i super worry about her! i don wan lose mummy! haix.. mummy is gonna be ok!!! there one once saying.. how u treat ur mom will be how u treat ur wife next time! so.. i wanna treat my mum gd!!! anw.. whats my situation compare to her!!! i am also xinku but! MUMMY IS WORST!!! so.. i will be strong.. to take care of mummy!!! first time ever in my life i gonna go jogging with mummy later!!! :)
after posting this post.. i will go down with mummy and pei her jog and exercise! although i hope bao bao is there as well.. but.. :))) nvm..

maybe cause of continuously jogging the last few days alone and something with a friend
kinda cool.. jogging can really makes me relax..got once saw a couple jogging den bring the dog along to jog also! haha so cute! how i hope i can have that experience also! hahaha ohhh and bballing! hahaha kinda went down my hse below during early early morning and late late at night to ball alone! :)))))
kinda look refresh now.. at least i wont go thinking and thinking alr.. starting to feel the change in me and the trust i can give :)))
at least the paranoid part is gone.. but still.. my caring part is always there!!! although sometime feel jealous and insecure.. but.. i am ok! i am more open already.. now i really know what u really want.. :)))

its ok!!! everythings gonna be ok .. OK? remember.. what i always told u..
SMILE!!! and.. not only smile!!! SMILE WITH UR TEETH!
WO YAO KAN DAO NI DE YA CHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA remember? hehe
haix.. can really see u are really happy now.. really really so happy!!!
kinda.. errrr glad? to see that? maybe.. i guess :)))
i am kinda actually sad.. but.. anw.. see u happy.. i also happy for u ba :)))
thats more important

still got hold of ur msg..
"i will forgive u no matter what, i love u very much"
will bao bao forgive me once more? one last last last time more...? :(((

bao bao also told me.. she wont leave me no matter what..
(wo yong yuan dou bu hui li kai ni) now its hub de turn.. i yong yuan dou bu hui li kai ni
i wont see u suffer and do nth de.. but for now.. i am afraid wad i do.. u will get irritated..
sry.. at least i wan u to take care of urself ok? no matter what.. i will be there for u..
just the toot button away from u =)
can see u are happy now.. and i dunno if u are suffering or not.. but still hope u are fine jiu hao
baby wont leave u.. no matter what also...
i promise and i wont broke the promise.. ( wo yong yuan dou bu hui li kai ni)
am i still as important to u? am i still ur no.1 priority? putting me infront of urself and family?
cause.. u are so important to me.. ni zi dao ma?

anw.. ah po!!! how are u again :)))
always saying the same things! hahaha but can only talk to blogger like talking to u liddat! so talk to blogger is like i am talking to u! hahaha.. kinda worry bout u still..like i am no more the paranoid person le.. as in.. "trust" haha!!! that special word i learn! hahaha.. ohhh to be frank.. the word trust really is very powerful! hahaha..
anw.. just hope everythings OK for u!!! and hope u are not lost! =) cause i am inside ur heart with u.. i am looking after u.. :))) u are not alone.. i am all along with u ok.. my hand is inside ur heart to hold it and guild u through everything.. :)))

anw! lesson start at 8 today.. when i went down.. i saw the curry puff stuff.. it makes me remind me of tat time me buying u curry puff! hahah and u were like so happy as well.. den at least u can bring sch and eat if u are hungry! haha but afterall.. i didn't buy.. cause if i buy i will wanna buy it for u too.. so.. yep.. didnt.. hehehe.. but after that actually i did saw u at mushroom there while i was waiting for friend but i kinda like walk away and prevent from seeing u...

BAI GU!!! ni hai hao ma... ni zhi dao HEI GU hen xiang ni? hahaha ok.. -.-'' abit lame..
last time i am those kinda don like to joke and play with ah po.. but after her influence! haha
i become more high.. cause see her high very cute! den i also wanna high back! hahaha
like at my hse lift tat time.. den we will make that sign.. the "ask u come over sign" den say.. NI SIAO AH!.. NI SOT AH! hahahaha kinda cute.. but.. ok.. l0l
remember even b4 we were tgt.. the first name i given u is "BAI GU" hahaha and at that point of time i were the most shy guy ever.. u call me "HEI GU" den i ignore u! hahahaha anw.. sry! hahahahahaha... i remember u told me.. we just know each other for 3 days.. and it feels like 3month or 3year alr! hahaha.. yea! true! its really 3year + le.. hahaha to be exact!
suppose to be around 4years le +++ hahaha... cause something happen inbetween like now..
but after came back.. i did broke my promise.. and said for once the most detestable word! =(
dui bu qi.. forgive me ... and i remember how we went back tgt again! haha is through i talk to ur sis and u found out and u start msging me! hahahaha and ask me is it true! hahaha
how i hope to received ur msg... again.. cause whatever i say.. totally true..
give me more time to learn.. just abit more... trust me..

kinda use to u be by my side.. the text.. the care.. from u.. and obviously me as well..
ya! as i promise.. i will change.. i have stop contacting ur friends at this moment alr!!! i have told ur friends tat.. sry.. i will not contact u all again and ask about nat le.. cause all i wan is trust her.. and i wanna learn!!! i wanna change for her... i will put a stop to it!!! and i have!
she change me so much.. obviously from bad to freaking gd.. and all i wanna change is for her.. no one else i wanna change..
i have see u grown from sec 2+ .. 3 ... 4 .. 5.. poly year 1.. poly year 2..
u too! have watch me grown from small boy boy till i become kinda like a man le! still remember u once told me.. u wanna be dom de excellent laopo! excellent mummy! n excellent business woman! hahaha
roughly.. i actually know u for going 5years le.. :))) have u also been counting tgt?

i always bu trust u.. always paranoid over u.. say u don care.. don care.. but to be frank.. u are always caring for me.. even cooking of crab.. u wan me to eat! hahaha.. even puting braces.. u will accompany me to see doc at amk! haha.. and remember the amk chicken rice we ate.. haha
the moment really is shiok! hahaha

and the genting arcade.. hahaha.. i miss playing arcade with u.. the game u remember.. u remember???
THE "BOOM BOOM BOOM" GAME! hahahaha and it writen.. we got the best teamwork!!!!
and i promise u.. the next time we will complete all the level tgt! hahaha the next time.. i will play with u through the game! haha and xdxn will control the steering! and we will protect them! hahaha thats is our favourite game! hahaha =D

OKOK! enough of crap! update to life again!!!!!!!

alright..here we go!!!
To keep this feeling alive! hahahaha..

USS!!! (UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE)

guess wad.. hahahaha thats my hand below and precious hand on top! hahahaha.. the first first first ever precious happiest happiest and most happiest moment of her life! hahaha she cant believe she went there!!! hahahaha when step into uss! precious keep telling me! THX LAOGONG.. i zhen de hen happy.. thx thx thx.. i zhen de hen kai xing! hahahaha.. precious always say until hen kua zhang one! hahaha to me like.. SOT ah! hahahaha.. i guess thats really the first time precious is soooo overly happy! hahaha she thinks that she is dreaming! haha keep on thx hubby! hahaha!

look at precious de chubby face! hahahaha.. ohhh.. behind is actually my car la.. i drove there..
hahahahaha..
nah. just joking! hahahaha if thats my car.. i comfirm drive precious around uss liao! hahaha

anw.. this is some of the picture taken there! hahaha not all upload..
if upload all.. i think may took me dayssss alr -.-'' hahaha see the smile on her face!!! hahahaha

Ohhh ya!!! we bought a couple pen! hahahaha..

another couple stuff precious bought is when we at PS! hahahaha she bought me a super long long blue rubber and a couple pen!hahahaha .. starting i still dunno and ask her why u buy.. she keep skip topic! in the end.. hahaha SHE BOUGHT IT FOR ME!!! ahhaha and we are using the couple pen! hahaha and remember the big big 3 yellow box.. haha the suprise from me.. the bird nest stuff and the keychain! ? hahahaha keep like prank on and u keep open the box! hahahaha den below is the keychain! hahahaha
not to foward the kiki book i bought for u also! hehehe

see wad see! hahaha look look me.. look look u! hahahaha

hahaha precious cant get hold of taking pic! hahahahaha
memories with u.. is the best i ever had! thx precious :)))
its not the trip thats happy.. is the person u went with and the fun we had tgt is more important :)))
anw.. the roller coaster is one is my most burden part! hahahaha actually i was kinda scared and don really dare to sit! hahaha but i endure it with precious! hahahha she wanted to sit it soo much so.. i give in and sit with her! hahaha i wanted her to feel happy! haha so i don care weather i am scared or not.. i just play with her and afterall.. it come out super fun!!! hahaha
SHOUTING AND SHOUTING!!! haha especially that wenquan! hahah keep disturb my face la! hahahahahaha!!! but anw.. wads important is still... precious happy jiu hao!

hahahaha can see precious is sooo tired alr.. hahahaha rest on my arm! hahahaha
my shoulder is natalie's! hahaha she will be the last to ever rest her head on my shoulder!

baby promise to bring u there again :))) and we can sit roller coaster tgt! but i will abit scared =(

one of the random genting picture! hahaha wearing the denim jacket as there really really very cold! haha ohh and i miss my long long long hair! haha got feel to grow back but auntie say the hair like "QI GAI" hahaha so.. maybe long but not till that long ba! hahah

ohhh yes! hahaha also one of the trip to malaysia! hahah with gloria and marcus!
hahaha.. that day ah po also quite happy! hahahaha.. and we went to the seafood place.. hahaha everything is like sooo cheap .. freaking full la! hahahahaha
cant imagine.. hope to go there again! haha kinda miss that place ! haha

And lastly!!! THE FIRST EVER POLARIOD PICTURE with ahpo! hahaha
soo many first time first time la! hahahahahahaha although the picture abit blur but still..
the picture is keep close close close to our heart! hahahaha.. anw saw the ring on my neck? haha thats what i am wearing now! hahaha..

OK!!! its been 1week+ alr ah po! still the same! haha wonder how are u doing?
still.. dui bu qi.. i do alot of things and disappoint u! :(((

remember ah po once say she like to listen to my voice on phone! haha saying "hello" at a mono tone! hahahaha.. den i will keep ~~HELLO~~~ hahahaha..
she will always call me after her work.. and we talk till she reach her hse! hahaha...

although kinda quarrel alot :((( and once.. laopo meet up with me.. she will be ok! hahaha
one of the example will be.. tat time quarrel den we went out.. haha den laopo first time saw me at the lrt there is.. come give me a hug and say 'wo bu yao chao jia' hahaha..cute max la!

hub hub miss u so much do u know? :((( dunno if bao bao miss me anot..
i also hen miss siting below the playground..talk talk and remember laopo wearing my big big havainas slipper and took picture of it! hahaha and also i remember where is the very very very first time i hug ah po! haha at near bball court there.. i shy shy de ask.. can i hug u! hahahaha..
still remember ok! hahahahahaha..

another will be at tm.. haha me and my classmate go tm eat lunch! haha den u suddenly pop out from nowhere.. hahahaha den just to give me a peak! hahaha..

remember there was once i came over to ur hse.. and scrap ur floor? hahahah we were like couple clearning ur floor! hahahahaha... ah ma still say.. wha dom so nice ah.. come help ah nat scrap the floor! hahahahha...

27 is a bus that also remind me of u! haha we will always sit infront of the 1adult and 1 child sit and u will fall asleep in my arm without fail.. haha and when bus is so cramp.. i will hug u tight tight wont let u fall :)

and we ever celebrate valetine day tgt!!! hahaha at nex! hahahaha!!!thats is where i bought the super ROSE GOLD ANKLET FOR U!!! hahahaha i believe u like it and love it alot! even till now!!! hehehehehe... glad u really love it :))) did mention b4.. tat one put to BANG ZHU NI DE! hahaha and u say..HAO AH!!! ni yuan yi rang wo bang zhu! hahaha..
ohhh and at nex! laopo give me the ipod! hahahahahaha she really best best i ever had! hahaha
remember she like kinda ask me.. buy 16gb or 32gb better den i was like.. u already got iphone liao still buy! hahahaha she always know how to suprise me and make me fall for her trick! although now i abit smarter! hahah remember she keep ask me smell perfume and i guess it right i say.. U WAN BUY FOR ME IZZIT! HAHAHAHA AND SHE LAUGH! I REMEMBER AT FAR EAST SOMEMORE! hahahahaha CATCH YA! for the first time! haha

alright.. suddenly vivo this place came to my mind! hahaha.. tats the first ever dating me and ah po went to.. thats when i start calling ah po.. bee bee.. cause she wear tat yellow shirt.. haha still got tat picture.. hahaha.. ohh tat picture is in my natalie's cupboard! hahaha.. hanging it there..

sooo many stuff to say and rant out and vent out la!!! hahahahhaa
genting genting genting.... once u went there and i didnt go :((( u will buy prepaid card and call me! hahaha and u will sit at starbucks.. we will email tgt and chat!!!! hahahaha..

always popping out from nowhere to suprise ah po with food! and makes her happy! haha mentioning about food! haha yes tats ah po de fav! hahaha i understand her too well! hahaha
and remember once she sms and say she crave shaker fries! haha i ran down to cp and buy her and suprise her at her hse below! hahah den she keep laugh laugh and so happy! keep thx hubby also! haha

remember the time even b4 we are going to be tgt.. hahaha i always go ur hse below find u..
den we always will chat chat and talk till around 10+ and we go home! hahahahahah
how anxious we always wanna meet each other at below.. haha still remember the first time u really really first time cling onto me!.. hahaha i was like telling u.. i like it.. haha and u also say u love to cling ur hand to me! hahahahha.. tats was like sooo duper sweet :)))
obviously this is why u name me a new name "hot fudge sweetie pie" haha or call me pie pie! haha

flying of kite! hahaha we will go buy sushi and eat tgt!!! haha will buy the mat! buy sandwhich buy laogong de fav black pepper ham! hahahhaa and laopo will always make me the most sweetest ( sandwhich ) hahaha.. and we will play with xd de kite! hahaha.. i miss flying kite with u at marina barrage! hahaha.. we will go again ok!!!
i wanna make u sandwhich for u too...

alright.. shld really stop here first again :)))

i wanna do cookie with precious
i wanna do cake with precious at icing room
i wanna fly kite with precious!
i wanna play bball with precious!
i wanna go shopping with precious
i wanna go prawning with precious
i wanna go take more neoprint with precious
i wanna watch firework with precious
i wanna sit singapore flyer with precious
i wanna go uss with precious
i wanna go nex and vivo with precious and play "lai zhao wo" game! haha the missing game
den we will hint hint and say where we are! hahahahaha
i wanna watch movie with precious
i wanna go eat eston with precious
i wanna have a dog with precious and bring it go below walk walk :)))
i wanna hold precious,xd,xn de hand and walk the path tgt yong yuan

so many stuff i wanna do.. hahaha i believe she also wan it! cause she also keep mentioning it! ahahhahah

alright!!! cya guys! i am off to jogging again :)))
MUMMY IS CALLING ME FROM OUTSIDE LIAO! hahahaha

i miss u..
i feel ur pain.. "toot button" ah gong will fly there like superman!
but now.. caius and carinda will look after u in tummy!
remember to eat more!!! and rest well!
i will feel u with my heart! i will stay close to u :)))
ur name is in the ring.. and i will talk to u thru there :)))

hubby/baby is always inside ur heart..
hubby will deng ni for the rest of my life..
i have truely found my true love and the one i wanna spend forever and tats u..
deng wo..
wo hen bu xi guan mei you ni de text.. mei you ni de chun zai :((((((((((
just like beside my blog.. dominic wee love natalie oh! hahaha and urs too..
natalie oh love dominic wee.. haha not to forget.. i love ur blog de background too :)

dui bu qi..
i just wanna hao hao spend my rest of my life with u.. like what u always told me as well..

OKOK REALLY GTG LIAO!!! BYE BYE :)))
luckly tmr no sch! free wed! hahaha..

still got hold of ur 81 precious msg from u undeleted.. have been reading it again and again..
and u told me.. u will forgive me no matter what! will u forgive me still?

favourite of all time..

"ni shi wo de yong yuan"
"ni shi wo de zhui ai"
by ahpo..

i don wanna stop here.. i believe what we want in life!!! i am looking foward to it!
i wanna be a man to take care of u and very xiao dom xiao nat..
just remember.. u are not alone " hub hub is always there with u inside ur heart"
wait for hub hub..
hub hub don wanna lose u..

Been here @ 5:38 AM

DUI BU QI... i am just worry... dui bu qi..

hi! i am back here again!!!
kinda still not use to it.. but at least i can try and learn for now..
i have come to a 90% conculsion of signing on air force as.. errr alright.. i have my reason..
but only 1 person truely know my reason! hahahaha.. alright..
i do feel more relax and relieve as well now... but still.. i don feel happy at all alr.. hahaha

COME ON DOMINIC WEE... u can do it! :)))
alright random.. craving for genting breeze! hahaha and as well as the coffee with .... at genting.. hehehehe.. siting there and talk our hearts out! no secret no nth.. just <3 haha..

kk enough of crap...
Cya..

its been days.. how are u doing ah bao???
cant find any other ways to communicate with u.. but only this..
only able to let my heart feels it and transfer the feel to u!
anw.. its ok.. as long as u are happy.. i am definetly happy for u :)))))

remember the necklace? haha ur name infront and my name behind..
alright its not that i hiding behind ur name.. and u infront to protect me ok!
cause the name is place behind! NEARER to ur heart!!! so thats why i can feel ur pain :)))
i feel it :))) can u feel it too ? :( hahahaha its ok..

hahaha! take it this from my hp cover behind and took pic of it! hahahahaha
remember the time i work with ah po and ryl at "brother" haha selling label printer
hahah ah po know i having test driving soon so she do this for me to give me confidence! hahaha as well as encouragement! ahhahaaha without fail... obviously with ah po de this very sticker! hahaha i pass! hahahahahahaha! i still told her.. this sticker will be at my hp cover till the day i got my own car and i will stick this at my car.. hahahaah

alright.. i guess a few more weeks are this is what gonna happy again!!!
as in... the study part! hahahaha chiong and chiong and chiong :(((
haha to be frank.. i do miss studying at ACC! hahaha its kinda gd place to study..
hahahaha and remember my ah po always study sure must go buy "pocky" haha den feed me eat! hahahaha... ok twits for u =)

yea yea! this it one of the pic! hahaha as in..
can u believe..
DOM DID THIS DIARY! hahahahaha and bake that cookie! hehehehe..
cant believe even dom will do this.. first time ever in my life! alright.. haha
remember even cyn tell me she want cry ah.. if someone even do that for her.. hahaha! alright enough of crap again.. move on! =)

yep yep! another study moment!!! hahaha see that???
see that puff? hahaha thats not a simple puff.. its bought from my precious..
and we name it "xiao dom xiao nat de puff" hahaha xdxn is loved :)))

alright.. not to forget Max.. haha sitting there so sad..ahhhh don sad!!!
although u are not here but i bought the dog dog soft toy aka max to keep u company as well :)
although at genting.. my plan fail.. but at least i tried! u nv fail to know what i am doing! hahaha
but!!! u always nv fail to suprise me with awesome stuff! hahahaha
soft toy max will pei u de ok! =)))
just look how cute is ah po.. hahahaha!!!! she still email me the pic somemore! haha cute max

alright.. lastly..
this pic taken in compass point macdonald hahaha..
Dom's property! hahahahah!!! :((( errr ok...
loved this pic alot! one of my fav.. :)))

ohhh yes! haha this band! hahahahahaha.. i have been wearing it this feel days.. hahaha
this is sot of! sot of! my precious bought for me de! hahahaha i also bought one for her! cause i don wan me to be the only one wearing it.. i want to buy that to her as well! haha although its a little exp! but i don mind! hahaha cause ah po like couple couple de stuff.. hahaha
in USS also.. keep wanna buy couple Tshirt.. hehehe!

ok! haha i have taken this out and place it in my cupboard! hahahaha
as in.. thats not a simple cupboard! hahaha that cupboard is
"PLAINLY" "STRICTLY" for someone precious and important only! hahahaha it will ever ever be there!!! hahaha content is secret! hahahaha inside abit blur! hahaha

CANDLE! hahahaha ok! this picture is the second time me doing it for precious! :)
remember i cover her eyes and tell her.. xiang xing wo! hahaha follow me up the stair! hahaha
i remember i sweat like a dog.. but who cares.. as usual.. doing this FOR precious! hahahaha
remember going ikea to find candles and rose candle so.. got extra ah po can use it again! hahaha and that number 3! hahahaha.. ok i wont say what it is.. but we know why i taken the number itself only.. hehe i did explain to her the meaning! hahahahaha...
i wanted ah po to stand there and see me light up the number 3! hahahahaha

Ok.. random picture! hahahaha.. how close ah po cling on to me! hehehe..
and thats how close and important for me to protect her like a protector wee! hahahah..
ah po sitting at the wrong sit! hahaha bad hor? she never give up sit for elderly! bad bad! hahaha
jkjk!!!

hahaha also done by her... hahahaha and currently.. this pic is send as my ipod display picture..
hahahaha love u always? hahaha same as i do... love u always! =)))

ok! also first time ever in my life!!! i first time bought flower! hahahahaha i remember on that day itself! hahaha i am sick somemore!
hahahahaha.. and another one is... i bought
kinder suprise and put the ring inside.. hahahahahaha!!! and want ah po to eat it! hahahaha..
i still put the ring inside her finger! hahahaha.. like propose alr hor? hahahaha jkjk!!!

haha random saw this pic from my ipod.. hehehehe
super love to go daiso with ah po! hahahahahaha... ok.. abit ugly but.. who cares.. hehehe
shopping is ah po de fav.. and i will spend my life shopping tgt with ah po! hehehe..

OK!!! this is what i am talking about! hahahahaha
COFFEE!!!! hahahaha..
genting! haha best place! hahaha another best place would be at arcade! hahahaha..
coffee and slack and enjoying the breeze + talking heart to heart is what we do everyday! hehehe
i love this feeling! hahahahahahaha remember this is where i realise my mistake..
where i sit down and talk to her mum.. and she told me how i shld do and stuff. hahaha
this is the time i really and truely understand auntie! hehehehehehe
auntie did told me she likes me alot too! hahaha cause she can see how much i care love and teng ah po from bottom of my heart! hahaha afterall.. we are both saggitarus.. hahaha thats why i guess :)))

don really know what to talk more... as i want to continue loving u..
its ok if u are not here to count it with me... i don mind be the only one counting it.. :)

hahaha remember alot alot of stuff.. for example.. u always wanted to take the same cds as i do.. so we can study the same things tgt.. u wanna come the same sch as me.. so we can go home and sch tgt! hehehehe.. all is us us and us.. tgt! hehehehe.. sweet! still dont mind going ur cds to pei u! hehehehe!!! and go home.. tgt!
Mee sua nv fail to remember me of us too.. hehehe.. u make me love eating mee sua! hehehe..
omg.. out of the sudden.. i craving for mee sua! hehehehe!!! feed feed u.. feed feed me.. hahaha

ohhh ya! we also did promise to make cake tgt! at icing room! hahahaha although till now haven but... its ok la.. =D

miss playing bball with my ah bao as well.. afterall.. i am ah bao de favourtie star player! hahaha
i am honoured! hahahaha.. remember she went to find me.. and we played bball together.. haha she still took picture of me without me knowing! hahahaha..
first time i ever play couple bball with precious! hahahahaha

ohhhh out of the sudden!!! hahaha thought of prawning! hhehehehe.. alright.. we also went prawning tgt b4! but not 2 person.. but as a group! hehehehe..
i remember that time i still quarrel with precious! haha but after prawning!
SHE SUDDENLY SMS me say.. she reach home le..! hahaha so sweet! omg! hahahaha
at least she know i worry! hahahahahahahaha...

ohhh ah bao! i am here.. just know u are not feeling well this feel days...
i am so sry to like keep pressure u and force u... definetely needs time to learn... i promise i will.. give me abit more time to get over it!
i promise wont fan u alr.. i swear..
but u have to take gd care of urself! hahahahaha remember ? i didnt slp and u say u sick..
i rush down and pei u see doc! hahahaha u were like so touched and keep hugging me.. haha
and baby is there to hug u say.. nth de nth de.. hahahahah.. so sweet..
keep hugging bao bao! hahah.. my hug is urs :) hahaha

u were also once sick.. hahahah and i going to went off already.. den u run out and give me a hug! hahahahahaha.. den i say.. go slp! haha u dont wan..u just wanna hug me.. den i FIREMAN carry u to ur bed.. haha and cover blanket for u! haha after that give u a kiss at ur forehead..

Even with u.. going out with glo or ryl.. i without fail will sms glo and ryl to take care of u..
cause hubby will worry! hahaha as for that time.. they will always tell u i msg them.. haha
den u will like. OMG my hubby so sweet! hahahahaha.. sry that i keep contacting ur friends to ask them take care of u.. i am just afraid u walk to wrong path!
and.. i regreted!!!!
WHY!!!!!!!!! did i even do that..

SIMPLE WORD!!! TRUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I TRUST U.. I MUST TRUST U NOW!!! and i WILL TRUST U NOW..
i believe u wont ruan ruan lai... cause u are not others types of girl.. u are natalie..
u are diff from them.. for this i believe!!! forever!!!

remember national day that time.. baby did something so paiseh.. say i love u too loud till everyone also heard and i got tease by them? hahahaha... so cute mentioning about last time! hahahahaha..

remember the birthday suprise i done for u? hehehehe..
baby tried so hard for u!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha even got scolded by ur friend.. glo and ryl..
haix.. but still baby endure for u! hahahahahaha i still manage to did it for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha so baby hope u will endure it as well!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha
i hope my effort didnt go to waste :(((

and.. my cupboard is urs..mummy have been instanly clearing and keeping it clean for u.. hahaha don worry the cupboard is very clean and new still.. hahaha.. cupboard is natalie's..
for now i will name that part of my cupboard as "nat's cupboard" hahahaa..

cause.. baby teng ni..
no one will ever teng ni like how baby do... :)))

Ok.. here is the edit post! hahahaha..

Omg.. i don even know what happen.. when i am awake this morning.. my brother gf suddenly came in to my room!!! omg.. ok.. she is so nice... she told me she heard about my stuff from my parent and brother... so she sot of care about me and she came in and talk to me! omg cant believe .. cause me and my bro gf don really talk alot de.. hahahahahahah
ok.. here is goes...

OK!!! i truely understand the situation now! i regretted doing wad happen ytd..ok.. don really wanna mention it.. hahahaha.. but i really really understand already..
I FEEL FREAKING PISSED OFF WITH MYSELF!!!!! WHY DID PRECIOUS RESPECT AND TRUST ME SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! place me in no.1 priority.. and WHY DID I SUSPECT HER AND DIDNT RESPECT HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO TRUST HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause she have become my no.1 priority as well... dui bu qi baobei..

but.. I AM MUCH BETTER... know wad.. Malerie and natalie is the same.."scorpios"
Ok.. don really wanna talk about stuff.. but .. SHE OPEN UP TO ME..So i kinda like open up to her about the situation and stuff as well... like kinda what happen that leads to this.. haha

she also mention about her r/s and my brother! hahaha.. and still.. she tell me.. YES!!! she agree that she and natalie is not that close so she dunno what she is thinking but.. she comfirm and ask me this question..
"CAN U CHANGE FOR HER"??? she keep asking me this question.. i say ya! she ask me again.. like 3-4 more times.. cause she say.. for my case.. i will only say Will on critical situation..
so she said.. Once u really change alr den u tell me.. cause when say change.. not really say change jiu change.. needs times! hahahaha okok!!!
she told me.. "ONE LOOK AT NATALIE" i comfirm she is not that kind of person.she wont go around doing stupid stuff.. and etc etc.. hahaha and even mention what..
she agree girls outside like.. now so cheap.. easily easily guys sweet talk den the girl fall for it.. easily guys take no. from girl jiu give... BUT..MY PRECIOUS ISNT THIS KIND OF PERSON!!! I TRUST HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she is natalie.. guai lp.. wont do this stuff de..
but thats nature! hahahahaha! i believe my precious will understand what i mean too..
she is not that kind of girl! my bao bao never will.. thats is why i wanna win her back so mucH!!!!
she sound super like my father.. she say.. one word.. "TRUST"..
natalie is not that kinda of person who will anyhow anyhow outside or what.. she is different from other girls.. hahahaha omg.. cant believe she even said that.. so she say.. i am tooooooo
overly paranoid le.. hahahaha she wont do it means she wont do it.. why do i keep doubting her she will do it! hahahahahaha
she said cause she really cannot take it.. its not that she don love me.. its that she really like cannot take it anymore..
i never really share so much with her b4.. really the first time!
she still told me.. she will slap me if i don fight her back.. hahahaha she still say she will be waiting for me and precious to go back and we 4 can go steamboat tgt also! hahahahaha
just like des and "e" haha shldnt mention it i guess.. hahaha.. malerie really understand precious so well. err maybe thats why they are scorpios? haha.. she said it like.. she really understand her 100% totally! hahaha..
we have look beyond our future.. so its not easy for both party to say.. end it jiu end it..
she mention.. she think this is a perfect chance for me to change .. for now.. natalie wont go anywhere she said.. so this is a opporuinity for me to realise my mistake..
ITS NOT TOO LATE!!! hahahahaha.. yeaaa!!! everything is not too late unless i really sit there and do nth about it!!!

ok.. chated for like from 2.30 - 430 hahaha 2 hours of chat with her... kinda nice..
didn't know my brother gf is this kind of person.. i misunderstand her already.. although starting i don really likes her alot.. but now my impression of her totally changes..
after today.. i felt that.. i have become more close to my family .. and her.. hahaha.. my bro didnt made the wrong choice to be with malerie.. hahahaa..
Ok.. she ask me to be "patient" and be "firm" .. she believe that our r/s is not really that simple but really too many memories and stuff already.. like.. WE even look beyond our future with our kids (xdxn) so.. its not very easy to say.. forget it jiu forget it.. and she believe..
BOTH OF US wont say forget it jiu forget it! hahahahha but i did told her like.. natalie is more happier now.. she told me something like.. U SURE? YES? MY FOOT!!! HAHAHA funny.. of course she is more happier now but.. is she really happier? or is she faking to be happier.she is happier cause she can be herself.. but she really cant be even happier because natalie don have u with her.. she can be herself. YES!. but can she be happy being herself.. and along for long? she say.. she also wanna be herself.. but she cant be long cause r/s sure have rules and regulation as well just how deep we wanna see it and loose we wanna give it.. cause she love my bro too much to let him go as well.. hahaha i don expect more actually.. i just wan precious to be happy... she happy means i am happy.. tats simple..
and also did mention like.. precious now very afraid and scared of me.. hahaha
malerie told me... EVEN IF I AM NATALIE.. NOW I ALSO WILL SCARED OF U LA.. so scary! hahaha omg.. i think malerie really looks like desiree! hahaha their funny sarcastic part really 100% funny to the max! hahaha she said scared is scared.. but.. important is..
BOTH PARTY REALLY IN LOVE.. REALLY REALLY IN LOVE AND WANNA SPEND REST OF THEIR LIFE TGT!!! hahaha.. ok for this i agree with her..
obviously.. i wanna spend my rest of my life with precious and our xdxn..
precious did told me also.. " ni yi wei wo bu yao meh" haha but maybe for now.. she too tight and stress.. don worry.. i am inside ur heart.. i feel u! ok?

anw.. thx malerie.. promise u and my parents.. i will change.. I WONT DOUBT her anymore..
NEVER WILL I DOUBT HER!!! she is not that kind i know :DDD i know my precious TOO WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK!!! i am really gonna change now!!! really really gonna change already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WILL LEARN MY LESSON AND I WILL LEARN EVERYTHING FOR MY PRECIOUS..
thank malerie..
last long with my bro :)))

ok! i guess shld stop here first.. really feel more better venting it out rather than keeping it inside my heart.. whenever i feels sad or get back to normal.. i can always rely on this blog and continuously remind me to change! hehehe i will change!!! definetly..
i am in love with blogging.. at least for now.. haha so i can keep read back what i have posted and this memories will always be kept.. for now even forever.. and maybe.. MAYBE???!!! i can even let my caius and carinda(xiao dom and xiao nat) see my last time post next time.. how much i change for my ah po and how we manage to get tgt and stuff.. hahahaha... and NTH IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok.. anw..

... i am sooo sry ah po.. i don know how to apologise to u.. but.. i hope u feel me..sry i keep contacting whoever ur friends to find out about u..cause i am worry and paranoid.... but i will stop now.. i trust u. u anit any other girls out there cause u did tell me b4.. i hope will feel i am apologising to u in ur heart!!! u wont see it but.. i believe u will feel it.. i will stay close to ur heart and be with u :))) cause only honey have the key to unlock bee bee de heart..
ni wei wo do too much le.. now is laogong de turn to wei ni too.. cause i teng u..

still got ur this msg.. " i will spend my rest of my life deng my hubby baby de orh" hehehe..
and yes.. laogong too over alr.. now is my turn to spend my rest of my life deng my bao bao alr! hahahaha.. i will deng ni no matter what..
ah po! deng wo.. zhen de zhen de... i till now haven realise my mistake..
but i will one day! trust me for this... cause u my zhui ai..
its takes time..
dont worry bao bao.. deng wo.. i will be patient and stand firm for ur return..
we will spend it through all the obstacle.. i will hold ur hand and protect u and bring u to happiness!!!!!!!!!!!!! xiang xin wo!!!
don forgive me now..
but gei wo.. " LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST FINAL CHANCE"
not now.. but.. after i change for u..
ur neckless and anklet will be the confidence why i am hanging on to u!
remember.. baby name is behind it.. i will stay close to ur heart!!! baby is here!!!
promise u.. i wont do it anymore.. promise..
i understand ur pain alr :)))
i will let ah bao be who she really is.. thx bao bao for letting me be who i always was..
its time for u to be who u really are.. :))) and respecting and trust me..
No one understand me well.. ONLY U!!! and tats all!!!

if we are meant to be.. we will be :))) for this.. i comfirm we are meant to be.. just that for the time being.. ah gong have to change for himself first .. lets take some time and reflect first ba..
its still early! hehehe.. i have got 6more years :)))
cause we promise hao.. laopo 25 and i 26... hahaha cause we dont wan our precious xiao dom and xiao nat to have age gap with us.. hahahahaha.. alright..

bao bao will spend rest of ur life deng baby...
baby will always spend my REST of my life deng ni.. hao bu hao ? :)
true love awaits.. yes.. my love for u.. is true.. and i will awaits..
i will put a stop to whatever i have been doing..
I WILL PUT A STOP!!!

i will be waiting for the day u tell me..
"baby" i don wanna lose u........................................ again..

cause ah bao..
baby wont and don wanna lose u................................ again too..

wo ai ni..
dom..

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